"Loneliness is the human condition." Janet Fitch wrote that in White Oleander. Is it true? Is everyone lonely? Is the search for something to fill the void inside futile?
I feel lonely more often than not. I wish for...search for; someone or something that will make that aching hollowness go away. Sometimes I can forget it's there, but it never goes away.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Monday, January 4, 2010
the rollercoaster called life
I really should update this more. I think about writing all the time, but I can rarely organize my thoughts and actually make it to the computer before I lose my train of thought. Plus I get sick of reading my own posts and seeing how whiny they are.
Where to start????
CJ has been in Iraq since December 29th. She's called twice and emailed once. So at least the communication seems to be better than we'd hoped. The GF and I are thinking about throwing a box of stuff together to ship to CJ since we have an address now. I'm sure she would appreciate a few things from home.
Christmas wasn't as bad as it usually is. I did get emotional, but I'm going to blame that on the fact that I was really drunk. LOL
New Year's was depressing. It always is since it's the anniversary of Mom's death. I can't believe it's been 5 years. I still miss her all the time.
I had a pretty bad case of the flu. Spent two days on the couch doing nothing but sleeping and puking. I feel better but now I'm terrified that the GF is getting sick. Not that she'll admit it until she's so sick she can't move. Miss Tough Girl...that's her. She's not doing herself any favors trying to pretend she's not sick. If she would just take the medicine and rest, she'd get over it faster.
I'm supposed to call today about meeting with someone at PCC to go over admissions and financial aid. I'm seriously considering chickening out. It's all so overwhelming. I can always do school online.
Where to start????
CJ has been in Iraq since December 29th. She's called twice and emailed once. So at least the communication seems to be better than we'd hoped. The GF and I are thinking about throwing a box of stuff together to ship to CJ since we have an address now. I'm sure she would appreciate a few things from home.
Christmas wasn't as bad as it usually is. I did get emotional, but I'm going to blame that on the fact that I was really drunk. LOL
New Year's was depressing. It always is since it's the anniversary of Mom's death. I can't believe it's been 5 years. I still miss her all the time.
I had a pretty bad case of the flu. Spent two days on the couch doing nothing but sleeping and puking. I feel better but now I'm terrified that the GF is getting sick. Not that she'll admit it until she's so sick she can't move. Miss Tough Girl...that's her. She's not doing herself any favors trying to pretend she's not sick. If she would just take the medicine and rest, she'd get over it faster.
I'm supposed to call today about meeting with someone at PCC to go over admissions and financial aid. I'm seriously considering chickening out. It's all so overwhelming. I can always do school online.
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