Sunday, March 28, 2010
Finally some results!
I weighed myself today and I've lost 2lbs! That's not a lot but it's a start. It's good to finally see the numbers going down. I feel more motivated to keep up with the diet and exercise routine. I don't even want to think about how many more pounds I have to lose, but I think if I focus on losing 2 pounds every week I'll be doing good. As my little cousin reminded me yesterday, I didn't gain this weight overnight and I'm not going to lose it all overnight either.
Friday, March 26, 2010
how do you tell your girlfriend her dog is ruining your relationship?
She had this dog before we met. It's not that I hate dogs. I don't even hate this particular dog. I just hate some of the behaviors he displays and I'm frustrated that she's doing nothing to correct it.
The first problem is how he acts when we have food. He doesn't just beg when we're eating. He will get his face right up to your plate. He feels like he's entitled to everything we have because she frequently feeds him off her plate. And if you don't give him anything he gets upset, will whine, and then will find one of the cats to terrorize. I have told her over and over to stop feeding him from her plate and to stop feeding him our food when we're eating. He's a dog and he needs to learn that. She doesn't listen. Anything I try to do to correct this behavior doesn't work because she will keep doing what she's doing.
The second problem is the dog sleeping in the bed. I've never been the kind of person who was ok with the dog being in the bed. It really messes with my allergies. I put up with it at first because he's a small dog and I didn't think it would be much of an issue. It is. He takes up more room than you would think possible for a dog his size. He steals the blankets. He snores louder than any person I've met. He wakes up in the middle of the night and scratches like crazy. I can't get a good night of sleep with him in the bed. And forget about being intimate. He goes nuts when he sees us sitting close to each other and will come and try to get between us. If she makes a sound in the bed, he has to rush up to see what's going on and sometimes growls at me. She finds it funny. I think it kills the mood. Would it be so terrible to insist the dog sleep in his own little doggie bed in the living room? He'd get used to the arrangement in a few days. He's a smart dog and can adapt to change quickly.
The first problem is how he acts when we have food. He doesn't just beg when we're eating. He will get his face right up to your plate. He feels like he's entitled to everything we have because she frequently feeds him off her plate. And if you don't give him anything he gets upset, will whine, and then will find one of the cats to terrorize. I have told her over and over to stop feeding him from her plate and to stop feeding him our food when we're eating. He's a dog and he needs to learn that. She doesn't listen. Anything I try to do to correct this behavior doesn't work because she will keep doing what she's doing.
The second problem is the dog sleeping in the bed. I've never been the kind of person who was ok with the dog being in the bed. It really messes with my allergies. I put up with it at first because he's a small dog and I didn't think it would be much of an issue. It is. He takes up more room than you would think possible for a dog his size. He steals the blankets. He snores louder than any person I've met. He wakes up in the middle of the night and scratches like crazy. I can't get a good night of sleep with him in the bed. And forget about being intimate. He goes nuts when he sees us sitting close to each other and will come and try to get between us. If she makes a sound in the bed, he has to rush up to see what's going on and sometimes growls at me. She finds it funny. I think it kills the mood. Would it be so terrible to insist the dog sleep in his own little doggie bed in the living room? He'd get used to the arrangement in a few days. He's a smart dog and can adapt to change quickly.
Monday, March 22, 2010
crybaby
I hate being emotional. I hate feeling like I'm going to burst into tears at any moment. I hate ending up crying for stupid reasons. I hate that I get sulky and irritable. On days like this I really hate being me.
Today I saw some stupid movie with some kid who had lost her mom. Naturally, I burst into tears. Twenty minutes later I was finally able to pull myself up from a fetal position and stop crying for my own lost mommy. That is so pathetic I don't even have words for how pathetic it is. I'm 28 freakin years old and I was crying for my MOM!
I woke up crying last night from a nightmare too. I dreamed that I was running around the place where I grew up, trying to find my father and his sister. Both of them are gone, but in the dream they were waiting for me and I couldn't find them. I hate dreams like that. What the heck is it supposed to mean? I keep having really weird dreams and they bother me. It's gotten to the point where I try not to fall asleep. And forget letting myself go lie down in my bed. I can't bring myself to do it. I've been sleeping in the living room with the tv on for almost a week.
UGH! I hate that I get still like this when I'm on a "depressive cycle". Not that a "manic cycle" is better. I want a more even level but I refuse to take meds. I can't handle being a zombie either. Some days I really wish I could be someone else for a little while so I don't have to deal with me.
Today I saw some stupid movie with some kid who had lost her mom. Naturally, I burst into tears. Twenty minutes later I was finally able to pull myself up from a fetal position and stop crying for my own lost mommy. That is so pathetic I don't even have words for how pathetic it is. I'm 28 freakin years old and I was crying for my MOM!
I woke up crying last night from a nightmare too. I dreamed that I was running around the place where I grew up, trying to find my father and his sister. Both of them are gone, but in the dream they were waiting for me and I couldn't find them. I hate dreams like that. What the heck is it supposed to mean? I keep having really weird dreams and they bother me. It's gotten to the point where I try not to fall asleep. And forget letting myself go lie down in my bed. I can't bring myself to do it. I've been sleeping in the living room with the tv on for almost a week.
UGH! I hate that I get still like this when I'm on a "depressive cycle". Not that a "manic cycle" is better. I want a more even level but I refuse to take meds. I can't handle being a zombie either. Some days I really wish I could be someone else for a little while so I don't have to deal with me.
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
making changes
For the past 7 days I've been trying to make positive healthy changes in my life. I've changed my diet; less sugar and carbs, more raw vegetables and fruits, and taking a daily vitamin. I've started exercising more; yoga, boxing, and strength training every day. The results are both good and bad. I've had some pretty sore muscles, but I guess I expected that to happen. I have more energy. I'm definitely liking that. Unfortunately I have gained a pound and the point of all of this was to help me lose weight. I hope that the pound I gained was because I'm building muscle and hopefully the weight will start coming off soon. I'm not giving up. In fact I'm considering adding more time to the workout for the next week. Maybe I'm just not exercising long enough. It would be nice to see some real results. It's difficult to stay motivated if I'm not seeing any weight loss. Well, we'll see how it goes for the next 7 days.
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