another rant about school

I decided a few weeks ago that I wasn't going to take classes over the summer like I had planned. There's a couple reasons. First of all, I have to add some language classes which will push me into a 3rd year anyway. Second, if we take the money I have saved back for summer term and put it with the money we've been saving for an apartment, we can get out of here 4 months sooner. I want to move. I need peace and quiet and some space that's mine. And now there's another benefit of having the summer off. I can relax and rest my brain!

This term is seriously pissing me off. Two of my professors went too slowly at the beginning of term and are now trying to crunch everything into the last few weeks of class. I had a psych test today. (More about that later.) I have an assignment due for my test anxiety class tomorrow. I have to write a 5 page paper on a subject I don't want to write about over the weekend. I have to read 2 chapters for psych over the weekend. I have a math quiz next Wednesday, the 2nd. I have a writing assignment and powerpoint presentation due for my test anxiety class on the 4th. I have to write a 6 page paper for psych and another 5-6 page paper for my writing class that are both due at the beginning of final's week. I have 2 more psych tests sometime in the next 3 weeks. I have a math final and a writing final to study for too. I feel so overwhelmed.

Now about the psych test. Once again I will state that I hate taking those tests online. Seeing that little timer counting down freaks me the hell out. I got a B on this test, just like the last one. And while you might say, "Oh a B, that's good!" I say, "Crap, a B." I need an A in this class. The psychology program at the college I want to transfer to is very competitive, if I don't get an A in all these prerequisite psych classes there's not much chance that I'm going to be accepted. Plus, it's frustrating to me that I know the material and can talk about it for hours, but still can't get an A on the test. Partly I blame my test anxiety and partly I blame the wording of the questions. They're not trick questions exactly but they're worded in ways that don't really make sense to me and make it difficult for me to figure out what it's asking. And this prof. likes to throw in answers like "both a and c" or "all of the above". Those throw me off. One of her questions had 6 choices, 3 possible answers and 3 combos of those kind of statements. I really wish she would just let me take paper tests at the school. It totally sucks that I have to take the 2nd half of this class with her next term. (Since it's a term based school some classes are split into two terms because there's too much information for one term.)

Speaking of next term, it's going to royally suck too. My schedule is going to be all jacked up. The psych class is only offered as a Monday-Wednesday class from 9-11 am. The math class I need is only available as a Tuesday-Thursday class from 8:30-11 am. With those two classes it was hard to fill in a Bio and English classes that fit. I ended up with English 106 (Poetry) on Monday-Wednesday from 1-3pm. The only Bio class/lab that worked for me is a night class. So I have lecture and lab back to back 6pm to 10pm on Thursdays, with some work to be submitted online during the week. That really sucks!

What also sucks is that we're going to be moving part way into next term. I'm hoping the move will be quick and that settling in will be easy. I really want to move but I don't want it to adversely affect my classes either. At least I will finally have a quiet place to study!

frustrated and injured

So, I've been exercising more regularly and I was proud of myself for keeping up with it. Then one day I got a little over ambitious and did a 30 minute basketball boot camp workout on Wii Active 2. The squats are killers. The sensor wasn't picking me up right and kept telling me to squat more. Well, after the last squat I felt something pop in my knee when I stood up. It immediately started to ache, but I didn't think it was too bad. I finished up my exercises and hopped in the shower. My knee was sore the rest of the day, but I thought it would be fine. The next day I could barely walk without pain. It hurt most when I tried to walk uphill or up steps. That was almost a week ago and it's still aching like a bitch. Now it's also stiff from trying not to walk on it. Not using my knee is basically impossible. I have to walk to the bus every day or I won't be able to go to class. I'm not going to miss any classes! I've been wearing a brace on my knee and that seems to help some, but I suppose if it's not better by next week, I will have to go to the doctor and get it checked out. I'm pretty sure it's just a sprain or a pulled muscle, but it could be a tear in the ligament or something. Ugh, I'm just so frustrated because I was doing so well with exercising and now I can barely do anything because my knee hurts so bad.

WTF???

I know my brother is a douchebag. He has always been a lazy mooch who doesn't care about anyone but himself. He's always fighting with his wife on facebook where everyone can see. I get sick of reading it. Well, now I hear from someone that he may have hit one of his kids. I don't know what to do. If I had seen it, I would have turned him in. He doesn't deserve his kids. I have told him over and over that he needs to get counseling, but he won't go. His anger issues are going to destroy his family. Sometimes I wish I could slap him upside the head and tell him exactly what I think of him. He needs to grow up, act like a real man, get a job, support his family, and get some help with his rage problem.

nightmares

For the second night in a row I had a disturbing nightmare that revolved around my parents. I have no idea why I'm suddenly dreaming about them. What bothers me most is that I'm dreaming about them both at the same time. I usually have a dream about one of them once every few weeks, but I've never dreamed about them both at the same time before. I woke up crying yesterday and today. It's a sucky way to start the day.