10 Things I learned in my 20s

With the big 3-0 quickly approaching, I felt that this would be a good time to reflect on what I have learned over the last 10 years...some serious, some funny, and some I shake my head and say "I should have known that all along."

1. Older doesn't always mean smarter or wiser.
-I have met many people older than myself who have a serious lack of good judgment or lack of common sense.

2. No one has it "all figured out" by the time they're 30.
-Goals change. Motivations change. People change. We're all stumbling along day by day trying to get where we think we want to be only to find that the final destination keeps changing. Not that this is a bad thing, it keeps us striving to be better and to do more with our lives.

3. "Friends forever" can happen but it's incredibly rare.
-People come and go from our lives. Some stay longer than others. They all serve a purpose and lost friendships need to be mourned sometimes, but when it's time to move on...move on. And if you happen to find that one person who does stick around for life, don't take them for granted.

4. Pizza for breakfast after a certain age will only lead to a day of heartburn and gas.
-For me that magic number was 25.

5. Many things you wouldn't think of as heartburn inducing can and will give you heartburn as you get older.
-Chocolate, Orange Juice, Cinnamon, etc. are no longer my bffs.

6. It's a lot harder to drop a few pounds than it was at 20.
-Maybe that's just because I'm female or because I've always been a little chunky.

7. All children are loud, obnoxious, and annoying 75% of the time.
-I used to think it was only certain ones, but now every kid gets on my nerves sometimes. Doesn't mean I don't love them. It only means I can only take small doses. Maybe it's different when it's your own kid?

8. If you want true love, you have to let go of all the hurt from bad relationships in your past.
-A big part of why relationships that were promising in the beginning fail is because at least one person is still holding onto that old baggage. You can't treat every potential mate like the one who broke your heart and expect the relationship to last.

9. It's easier to live with regret for something you did, than to live with regret for something you were afraid to do.
-Having too many "what if" moments in your past will drive you insane. If you have the chance to try something new (and potentially rewarding) go for it. Take a few classes, start a new hobby, ask that person out...just do it!

10. Never grow up so much that you stop having fun.
-Life needs balance. Be serious when you have to, but have fun when you can. No one wants to be around someone who is too serious; they are crabby and depressing.

me being selfish and bitchy

I'm so mad right now. My GF went to work at 4 this morning and she was supposed to be off at 1. She called me at 9 and said that the girl who was supposed to close the store tonight called in sick and the boss is out of town and the only other "shift" is already there working. What did that mean? My GF got off at 10, came home and got something to eat, took a nap, and then got ready and went back to work at 2 and won't be home now until 9pm. This seriously sucks. We've barely seen each other this week and she hasn't been able to take any vacation time since we moved and since school ended because they were short on staff. She's been training people for weeks now and she still gets shit on. She said all the new people have already requested a bunch of days off so there's no way she can take even a week off. They can all fuck off.

ahh peace and quiet at last

The gf and I officially moved into *OUR* apartment on May 12th. It's amazing having a place all to ourselves. We can come and go as we please. No one is waking us up at odd hours. My allergies are better without all the smoke and cat dander. I sleep in our bed! Omg, I missed sleeping in our bed! I almost cried the first night because it was such an amazing comforting feeling to crawl into bed next to the gf, feel her arms around me, and listen to her breathe as I drifted off to sleep.

There are adjustments we're having to make. We knew there would be. Since we don't have a car, we have to take the bus to the grocery store and pretty much everywhere else we want to go. It's not so bad though. Plenty of exercise! The gf walks to work or takes a cab. I take the bus to school. We have a laundry room in our building, but we haven't gotten a schedule down that works for doing the laundry yet. We have to figure out how to spread out 3 or 4 loads during the week. I have no idea how we dirty so many clothes!

I'm looking forward to summer. This term has been just crazy trying to keep up with 4 classes. I just have this week left and then finals next week. And then I can relax and sleep in for 3 whole months!

CJ came over and saw the new place a couple of days ago. She promised us some furniture and stuff when she moves. We'll see how that goes. She finally found out she's where she's going for sure and when...Cincinnati in November. She's not real happy about it. I think it might be a good thing for her to get away from all the drama she's dealing with here. At least her drama is her drama now and I don't have to deal with it!

Bu is loving the new arrangement too. He gets walked 3 times a day. He gets our undivided attention because there are no cats around. He's so cute about it! He's acting like a puppy again. He wants to play more and when we go for a walk, he wants to run all over the place. It's good to see him like that. I hated seeing him so depressed all the time.

Walking Bu 3 times a day has been good for me too. I'm losing weight. I lost 5 pounds last week alone! I'm down 26 pounds from my starting weight now. I'm smoking less too. Partly because we're not allowed to smoke in the apartment, partly because there is less stress, and partly because I'm walking more and if I smoke a lot I get out of breath too easy. The decrease in smoking is saving us a ton of money, which is good because things are going to be tight for a little while. Rent is cheaper than it was at the old place, but we have to pay for everything ourselves and I won't have any money coming in until fall. It's going to be an adventure to see how we do this, but I'm excited for it because it's OUR adventure.

not-so-lazy Sunday

I just finished working out. I weighed myself this morning. I dread the scale. I'm never extremely happy with what it says, but I suppose as long as the numbers keep going down I should be glad. I lost 6 pounds since April 1st. Not a huge amount, but still a loss. In total since I started trying to lose weight, I have lost 22 pounds. That's something at least.

I have 2 huge Biology projects to work on today. I really don't want to do it, but I must. They're due in 3 weeks and it's a lot of work, so I gotta get my ass in gear. I pray I survive this term with my sanity intact.

I dropped off my scholarship application and letters of recommendation on Friday. I have no idea how long it will be before I hear anything, but I'm keeping my fingers crossed. If I get just one of the 3 I applied for, it will mean a better money situation this fall.

Still hoping that we'll be moving on the 5th. Still haven't heard anything. Not knowing really sucks.

CJ is away visiting family in Florida. Omg, I am psyched about the silence! And I actually got to sleep until after 6 this morning! I can use the bathroom without being afraid of someone walking in on me! It's fabulous.

freaking out

I am stressed out so bad I can't sleep and I can't concentrate. I have been working on a scholarship application. I really need a scholarship. I asked 2 people to write letters of recommendation for me; a teacher and a friend. The teacher has been somewhat unreliable in the past so I was scared she would flake on writing the letter. She came through for me and wrote a fantastic letter. My friend, however, flaked. I had planned on turning the letters in on Monday, so I told her I needed it last Friday. She still hasn't given it to me and now I only have 2 days left. I can't ask someone else to write a letter for me and give it to me immediately! I don't know what to do. I asked my friend about the letter on Monday and she said she would have it Tuesday but she didn't. I mentioned it again on Tuesday and she said she would have it Wednesday, but she didn't. I think I'm totally fucked. The only thing I might be able to do is ask CJ to write one for me, but I HATE the thought of that.

Secondly, I'm stressed about this whole apartment thing. We still haven't gotten a call letting us know that it's ours for sure. I just want to know one way or another so I can stop worrying about it.

And I'm also stressed out about my 2 biology projects. The one for Bio Lecture is a group project. I hate working with other people because if they don't do the work, my grade suffers. I'm supposed to meet with my partner today to discuss the project. I haven't even had time to read over the articles I have to take notes. The other project I have to do on my own. I have been doing research, but I haven't had time to sit down and try to put anything together yet. I just have too much other homework. I have no idea how I'm going to get these both done in 3 weeks with everything else that's going on (and hopefully moving next weekend).

I really don't like feeling this much stress. I'm freaking out so bad today that I feel like I'll burst into tears or throw up at any moment. I just want to skip class and sleep, but I know I can't.

apartment woes and other things

Emotional rollercoaster again. We applied for an apartment in the building we want to live in last Monday. They said they'd let us know within 2 days. They called the next day (Tuesday) and said we were approved and just needed to make a deposit to hold the apartment. The GF was really excited, but I wouldn't let myself get excited because something always seems to go wrong when I do. I said I wouldn't get excited until we have the keys. The GF and I talked it over and decided that we wouldn't say anything to CJ until she found out where the Army was sending her. (She was supposed to find out on Friday.) Thursday we went over to the apartment building and made the deposit and signed an agreement on what we would have to pay to move in (not a lease). Friday, I couldn't help myself. I got excited about the move. I went and bought a microwave, a vacuum, and a new printer. I made a list of other things we'd have to get before we move in. Friday evening we get a call from the apartment manager. She said whoever processed our application didn't follow the guidelines and we shouldn't have been approved. She said it doesn't change anything except we need a co-signer who meets their criteria. Now I'm freaking out. We had to tell CJ what was going on and ask her to co-sign for us. She said she would, but she wasn't happy about having to give her financial info to them. We turned in her info yesterday (Monday) and we assumed that would be it. We thought since the manager said it wouldn't affect anything that we would just be waiting for the people in the apartment to move out and then we'd get a call to go pay the rest of the money and get the keys. But when the GF dropped off CJ's info, the manager said she would call us within 2 days and let us know. Let us know what? I have no idea. It makes me think that she was lying when she said that the mistake wouldn't keep us from getting the apartment. I'm thinking if CJ doesn't meet the criteria, we're royally fucked. We'll have to fight with the company that owns the building to get the deposit we already made back and then start looking for another place. I'm not hopeful about being able to qualify for another place if we didn't qualify for that one. The same company owns a bunch of buildings around here...all the ones that would be in the best locations for us to get to school and work. Well, there isn't much we can do about apartments anyway until we find out about this crap, so I guess I should just wait and see. CJ found out yesterday that the post she wanted in Germany was taken by someone higher up on the promotion list. Her choices are now Wisconsin, Idaho, and another state but I can't remember which one. She doesn't like any of them and hasn't said what she's going to do yet. But that changes things for us too. Since she's not leaving the country afterall, we most likely will not be getting her truck or any furniture or anything when she moves. So we have to hope that this apartment works out and that we'll be able to save up to get the things we need...like a car. In the meantime, we'll have to make due with very little furniture. I think we'll end up buying some beanbag chairs to get us by.

This week sucks as far as school goes too. I have 3 tests. I have one in Anthropology today and I'm not prepared at all. I can't remember a damn thing I read because I'm too freaked out about the apartment thing. If I don't get at least a C on this test, I'm seriously considering dropping this class. If I make it through this term without my GPA dropping below 3, it will be a miracle.

complaining again

This week has been crappy. I'm not sure what makes it feel so crappy. It hasn't really been any different than most other weeks. Maybe it's just PMS. I do have a lot on my mind though and I feel overwhelmed. I'm finding it hard to concentrate on my classes. I'm getting the work done, but I feel like I'm not retaining any of the information. Which sucks, because I have a quiz today in Bio and another tomorrow in math. This math class is frustrating the hell out of me. Most of the problems I know how to do algebraically, but they want us to be able to solve some of them using a graphing calculator. I have never used one of those before and I'm having a difficult time learning how to use it. There are so many steps! It's ridiculous to do 40 steps on the calculator to do a problem that I could solve in 10 on paper. I've been cheating on my homework. I've been solving the problems on paper and then trying to make the calculator stuff match up with my answer. That's fine for homework, but I can't do that on the quiz! The teacher said we'll have to demonstrate that we can use the calculator by doing a problem on it during the quiz and having him check off that we did it correctly. I think I'm screwed as far as that one goes. And the worst part is that I know it's only going to get harder as the term goes on. At this point, I'm just praying I can get a B, so I can go on to the next math class in the fall. I only have 1 more to go after this one and I just want to be done with math. It's not just math class either. I am overwhelmed by how much information and work I have to put into my Bio class and Anthropology too. The Anthro class doesn't have a lot of homework, but there's tons of reading and note taking. The Bio class...yikes is all I can say. It's really split into 2 classes; Bio Lecture and Bio Lab. Lab hasn't been too bad so far, but there is a lot of work involved. We have to do homework on the labs before and after. We have a quiz every lab period (once a week) on the previous lab. And then there is the actual lab work. The only good thing about the lab work is that we work in groups of 4, so if I don't understand something I can get another person's take on it. Remembering all that stuff for a quiz isn't easy though. For Lecture, there is way too much information to remember. We have done 3 chapters in a week and a half. All of that info is on the quiz today. I seriously hope it will be mostly multiple choice and true/false. I don't know if I can BS a short answer for this stuff. My Psych class is the same as always. Lots of reading. Lots of homework. The teacher is scatterbrained. She was supposed to post a video for us to watch on our class website on Monday after class. She didn't or I couldn't find it.

There's a bunch of other stuff on my mind too. I'm applying for a scholarship for next term. I needed 2 letters of recommendation for it. One I'm getting a friend to write. I know that she will send it to me on time and it will be great. The second one I asked my psych teacher to write. She said she would, but I know how flaky she is with things like that. She said she would give it to me before she leaves for whatever thing she's doing next week that has her cancelling class. Well I'm pretty sure she leaves this weekend and I still haven't heard anything from her about the letter. I'm not sure if I should ask her or not. I don't want her to think I'm just being annoying about it, because I want her to write good things!

I'm also still freaking out about moving. We still haven't found a place. My gf works later in the day today, so she's going to call a couple of places this morning. I hope we can find out something good. I want to get out of here as soon as we can. Since we know when CJ is leaving, that gives us a concrete deadline and I don't want to leave anything to the last minute. I figure the sooner we move, the better. It is the Army dictating CJ's move after all. They sometimes move deadlines up without warning. I don't want to be stuck with no place to go.

Ugh. I feel like I need a vacation from my life right now.

new weight goal

I was looking at the army's standards for enlistment (don't ask) and found a chart of what their weight requirements are. For someone female my age (29) and height (5'6") the maximum weight is 158 pounds. So that is now my long term goal - to be at or below 158 pounds. I certainly have a long way to go.

Curious what the army thinks you should weigh? Check out this chart (note that this is the female chart only): http://usmilitary.about.com/od/army/l/blweightfemale.htm

a little frustration and a little hope

Obviously I have given up on the photo challenge. I just couldn't keep up with posting every day. I might start a weekly challenge of some kind. I think that would work better for me.

Now for the news...

I'm increasingly frustrated with everything that's going on around here. I'm honestly at my wit's end. I can't deal with being treated like a sub-human anymore. I'm also frustrated that the apartment building we had hoped to move to doesn't have any apartments available anymore. We called our second choice place and they do have an opening but they won't hold it until the 1st. We won't have the entire amount we need to move in until then. But there is some hope...They might agree to hold the place with a deposit for a few days, so we're going to fill out the application and take it to them Friday. By the time they get the background check and stuff done, it should be only a couple of days before the 1st and hopefully they will agree to hold the place. I'm keeping my fingers crossed.

Day 5 of the 30 Day Picture Challenge

It's hard for me to choose a favorite memory. There have been quite a few good ones. I narrowed it down to two.

These 2 pictures are from the first one.



My brother Will and my cousin Julie and I had a great time over that weekend in September 2005. We didn't do anything special, just hung out and took pictures. My sister Shonda joined us on Sunday.
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This picture is the first picture of my girlfriend and I together (April 2006). Her first visit was one of the greatest times of my life.

Day 4 of the 30 Day Picture Challenge

This is a picture of my night. We ordered pizza and I had a beer and we watched Burlesque (which is fantastic, by the way).

Day 3 of the 30 Day Picture Challenge

I had to post 2 pictures for this one. My favorite show is NCIS. The first picture is the original cast and the second one is the current cast.

Day 2 of the 30 Day Picture Challenge

This one was a little hard for me because I've been close to several people for long periods of time and the person I used to be closest with I'm no longer close to. So...I'm posting 4 pictures with explanations.


This is me and my brother John.(Sorry it's not a good pic. I couldn't find a better one that was just the two of us.) He was my first best friend, but we're not really close anymore.


This is me and my step-sister, Kami. She was my best friend off and on from the time I was 2 until I was around 20.


This is me and my cousin, Julie. We've always been close...sometimes more than others, but for the last 5 or so years she's been my best friend.


And this is me and my girlfriend. She's been my best friend since we met 5 years ago.

Day 1 of the 30 Day Picture Challenge

1. I love to read classic literature.
2. I want to name my first child Owen if it's a boy or Olivia if it's a girl.
3. I hate popcorn.
4. Before I go to sleep every night, I whisper good-night to my parents.
5. I'm afraid of clowns.
6. I have a compulsion to pluck out my eye lashes.
7. I love the smell of old books, vanilla, and cucumbers.
8. Moving to Oregon was both the best and hardest thing I have ever done.
9. Music can always make me feel better.
10. I put impossible expectations on myself. (Like expecting myself to get an A in every class until I graduate.)

30 Day Picture Challenge

I've been seeing this popping up on facebook for a while now. I don't want to do it on facebook though, so in an effort for me to blog more I'm going to attempt to do it here. We'll see how long I can keep up with it! LOL

It would be really fun if my friends did it to. *hint hint*

Here's the list:
Day 01 - A picture of yourself with ten facts
Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest
Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show
Day 04 - A picture of your night
Day 05 - A picture of your favorite memory
Day 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day
Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item
Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh
Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most
Day 10 - A picture of the person you do the most ****** up things with
Day 11 - A picture of something you hate
Day 12 - A picture of something you love
Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist
Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without
Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die
Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you
Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently
Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity
Day 19 - A picture and a letter
Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel
Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget
Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at
Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book
Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change
Day 25 - A picture of your day
Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you
Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member
Day 28 - A picture of something you're afraid of
Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile
Day 30 - A picture of someone you miss

improvements

I registered for Spring term today. I was able to work out a little bit better schedule. I have a long day on Mondays (9am to 6pm). But the other days aren't so bad. I get home before 3 on Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday. And this new schedule allows me to keep my Fridays off...which I'm extremely happy about. The classes I ended up signing up for are Math 95, Biology, Psych 202, and Cultural Anthropology. I'm really interested in the anthropology class. I bet it's going to be really interesting stuff!

Also the GF and I discussed some things today and we're 99% sure we will be financially ready to move May 1st! Emotionally and mentally we're ready now! LOL The money is just slow to catch up. I can't wait to be free to walk around in my underwear if I want to and have some quiet time and most importantly to have some space that I can call mine. I can't wait to have OUR place. I can't wait to argue over linens and china patterns. Just thinking about it makes me sigh with relief and get giddy all at the same time.

another rant about school

I decided a few weeks ago that I wasn't going to take classes over the summer like I had planned. There's a couple reasons. First of all, I have to add some language classes which will push me into a 3rd year anyway. Second, if we take the money I have saved back for summer term and put it with the money we've been saving for an apartment, we can get out of here 4 months sooner. I want to move. I need peace and quiet and some space that's mine. And now there's another benefit of having the summer off. I can relax and rest my brain!

This term is seriously pissing me off. Two of my professors went too slowly at the beginning of term and are now trying to crunch everything into the last few weeks of class. I had a psych test today. (More about that later.) I have an assignment due for my test anxiety class tomorrow. I have to write a 5 page paper on a subject I don't want to write about over the weekend. I have to read 2 chapters for psych over the weekend. I have a math quiz next Wednesday, the 2nd. I have a writing assignment and powerpoint presentation due for my test anxiety class on the 4th. I have to write a 6 page paper for psych and another 5-6 page paper for my writing class that are both due at the beginning of final's week. I have 2 more psych tests sometime in the next 3 weeks. I have a math final and a writing final to study for too. I feel so overwhelmed.

Now about the psych test. Once again I will state that I hate taking those tests online. Seeing that little timer counting down freaks me the hell out. I got a B on this test, just like the last one. And while you might say, "Oh a B, that's good!" I say, "Crap, a B." I need an A in this class. The psychology program at the college I want to transfer to is very competitive, if I don't get an A in all these prerequisite psych classes there's not much chance that I'm going to be accepted. Plus, it's frustrating to me that I know the material and can talk about it for hours, but still can't get an A on the test. Partly I blame my test anxiety and partly I blame the wording of the questions. They're not trick questions exactly but they're worded in ways that don't really make sense to me and make it difficult for me to figure out what it's asking. And this prof. likes to throw in answers like "both a and c" or "all of the above". Those throw me off. One of her questions had 6 choices, 3 possible answers and 3 combos of those kind of statements. I really wish she would just let me take paper tests at the school. It totally sucks that I have to take the 2nd half of this class with her next term. (Since it's a term based school some classes are split into two terms because there's too much information for one term.)

Speaking of next term, it's going to royally suck too. My schedule is going to be all jacked up. The psych class is only offered as a Monday-Wednesday class from 9-11 am. The math class I need is only available as a Tuesday-Thursday class from 8:30-11 am. With those two classes it was hard to fill in a Bio and English classes that fit. I ended up with English 106 (Poetry) on Monday-Wednesday from 1-3pm. The only Bio class/lab that worked for me is a night class. So I have lecture and lab back to back 6pm to 10pm on Thursdays, with some work to be submitted online during the week. That really sucks!

What also sucks is that we're going to be moving part way into next term. I'm hoping the move will be quick and that settling in will be easy. I really want to move but I don't want it to adversely affect my classes either. At least I will finally have a quiet place to study!

frustrated and injured

So, I've been exercising more regularly and I was proud of myself for keeping up with it. Then one day I got a little over ambitious and did a 30 minute basketball boot camp workout on Wii Active 2. The squats are killers. The sensor wasn't picking me up right and kept telling me to squat more. Well, after the last squat I felt something pop in my knee when I stood up. It immediately started to ache, but I didn't think it was too bad. I finished up my exercises and hopped in the shower. My knee was sore the rest of the day, but I thought it would be fine. The next day I could barely walk without pain. It hurt most when I tried to walk uphill or up steps. That was almost a week ago and it's still aching like a bitch. Now it's also stiff from trying not to walk on it. Not using my knee is basically impossible. I have to walk to the bus every day or I won't be able to go to class. I'm not going to miss any classes! I've been wearing a brace on my knee and that seems to help some, but I suppose if it's not better by next week, I will have to go to the doctor and get it checked out. I'm pretty sure it's just a sprain or a pulled muscle, but it could be a tear in the ligament or something. Ugh, I'm just so frustrated because I was doing so well with exercising and now I can barely do anything because my knee hurts so bad.

WTF???

I know my brother is a douchebag. He has always been a lazy mooch who doesn't care about anyone but himself. He's always fighting with his wife on facebook where everyone can see. I get sick of reading it. Well, now I hear from someone that he may have hit one of his kids. I don't know what to do. If I had seen it, I would have turned him in. He doesn't deserve his kids. I have told him over and over that he needs to get counseling, but he won't go. His anger issues are going to destroy his family. Sometimes I wish I could slap him upside the head and tell him exactly what I think of him. He needs to grow up, act like a real man, get a job, support his family, and get some help with his rage problem.

nightmares

For the second night in a row I had a disturbing nightmare that revolved around my parents. I have no idea why I'm suddenly dreaming about them. What bothers me most is that I'm dreaming about them both at the same time. I usually have a dream about one of them once every few weeks, but I've never dreamed about them both at the same time before. I woke up crying yesterday and today. It's a sucky way to start the day.

wow

This is how a convo in class went very bad.



Girl next to me: "So you're older than most people at this school, huh?"

Me: "I think I'm somewhere in the middle. There's a lot of different age groups here."

Girl: "How old are you?"

Me: "29."

Girl: "Wow, you're almost as old as my mom!"

Me: "What? How old is your mom?"

Girl: "33."

Me: "No way. How old are you?"

Girl: "18."

Me: "..."

I want to punch my psych professor

I'm so fed up with my psych professor. She canceled both classes last week. The first one she said she had to cancel because she is writing another text book and needed to meet with her editors. The second one she didn't explain. She just canceled it. And then she gave us a huge homework assignment to do over the weekend. I hate that she's so arrogant as to assume we have no other homework to do over the weekend. (Or that we have lives outside of school for that matter!)

Her assignment took me a whole day to do! And I still had to write a paper for my writing class and do 80 math problems. Not to mention I had to try to find time to spend with my gf since we only really see each other on the weekend.

I hate that this professor just cancels class whenever she wants but we lose points if we're absent. That's so backwards. We pay her to teach us! She should be docked pay for canceling class and we shouldn't lose points if we choose not to go to a class we are paying for.

She gets on my nerves in class too. Our class is at 9am. Most college kids aren't peppy at 9am. I'm never peppy no matter what time it is. She gets all butt-hurt if we don't show enough enthusiasm and says she doesn't feel like teaching if we going to be quiet and "grumpy". Well, excuse me. Not everyone is a social butterfly. Some of us are naturally observers. That's how I learn. And it's precisely my observational skills that I believe will make me a good therapist. No one wants a therapist who talks incessantly and expects their client to be happy-go-lucky all the time. They want someone who listens!

I really should post more than once a month

I never realize how much time goes by between posts. My life isn't that boring! I do have some things I could write about. I just don't feel motivated to write most of the time.

I'm really emotional this morning. (stupid PMS) I feel like ditching class, but I'm sure being there will keep me from thinking about things that will make me cry. I just hope that my psych professor won't make us do group work today. That grates on my nerves and just might make me throw up on a day like today.

January is nearly gone. How is that possible? Time just seems to fly by these days. I'm already 4 weeks into my second term. These classes are so different that the ones I had first term. This writing class is way easier (read dumbed down). This psych class is way more reading and busy work, but interesting. I hate hate hate that we have to take all the exams online though. I'm not sure what to think about my math class. It's a continuation of the algebra class from last term. We've had a quiz and a test already. I studied hard for the quiz and I got a C. I can't remember the last time I got a C on anything! The test, well I forgot what day it was and I hadn't studied at all, but I got an A. Seriously! I think my strategy for this class is going to be not to study. Mid-February I start a test anxiety class. From what I read, it's all book and group work. There are only 3 classes, all on Fridays, and all 3 hours long. To pass you just have to show up to all the classes and participate. Should be a piece of cake.

I've become obsessed with calculating and recalculating how much money we have in savings and how long it will take to save up to move. I'm not happy with the projected date. It looks like, no matter what we do, we are not going to be able to move before June. (And that is supposing that nothing major happens to keep us from putting the amount in savings each month that we need to.) We might be able to swing it sooner except that I have to put back money to take 2 classes over the summer because I might not be able to get financial aid for summer. If I had that money to work with we could move in March. It really sucks. I want out of here! I want my own space. I want to be able to take a piss in peace. I want to be able to go to sleep when I want, in a bed (as opposed to the couch), and not be awakened by someone banging around at 3 or 4 in the morning. I want to be able to do my homework without a thousand interruptions. I want to be able to fricken relax!