senseless babble

I had lost 7 pounds and I was extremely proud of myself. Then I got hay fever. It was so bad I didn't feel like doing anything. Needless to say, I gained a bit of the weight back because I wasn't keeping up with exercising. I had to start over with that yesterday. Good news is that the first few pounds come off easy. I don't hit a stall until I've lost about 10.

I overwhelm myself. I commit myself to so many different projects and then when I look at all I have to do, I freak out and do nothing because it seems insurmountable. I think I cause myself to fail in my effort to do everything, be everywhere, and take care of everyone. I keep telling myself that I will stick to the commitments and get them all done, but I keep allowing myself to procrastinate. I'm doomed.

Been thinking about the whole having a kid thing again. I actually might have found a way for it to happen. Two potential plans actually. One is going to require saving up some money, but it's doable. The other requires convincing the girlfriend that asking the person I want to ask isn't such a bad idea. What's the worst that can happen? He says "no". Big deal. And if he says yes? Amazing possibility.