more random rambling

I had a hard time falling asleep last night. My final paper for writing class kept popping into my mind. I thought I was going to write about one thing and then when I did a little research, I couldn't find enough sources to back up my idea. I was awake thinking about it last night and I think I hit on a better idea. I think I'm going to write about obedience and authority. Not quite sure how I'm going to connect that to one of the writers we read, but I have a clear idea of what I want to write at least. This paper is going to take a lot of work. It's longer than the others I had to write. We have to include 2 outside sources, in addition to connecting the idea to one of the writers we read. (I'm thinking I'll use either Levi-Strauss or Thoreau.) I'm thinking I can use Philip Zimbardo (learned about him in Psychology) as one of my outside sources, but I need to find another. I've tried outlining this essay and it's impossible! Outlines don't really work for me. I have to just write and see where it goes and then go back and fix it when I'm done. I can totally see 20 drafts of this paper in my future. Thank goodness we have almost a month to write it.

The gf and I are both battling colds. Everyone seems to be getting sick. I expected to catch something because the "kids" I sit in class with all day are nasty. They don't cover their mouths when they cough or sneeze and I have seen more than one of them either picking their nose in class or wiping their nose on their sleeve. Gross! I didn't expect the gf to get sick though. She hardly ever gets sick. She insists that she didn't catch it from me because her symptoms aren't exactly what mine were, but I don't believe it. She must be really run down though to get sick. That makes me worry a little. She could really use some time off work to relax. That place is insane. Speaking of the evil place...she found out a few days ago that she won't have any choice anymore in what days she has off. This coming after fighting with her boss about not getting the day off that she was requesting anyway. Now his boss is saying that shifts can't submit availability forms anymore. It looks like after the holiday she will have Sundays and Mondays off. That really sucks. We won't be able to do much together. Sundays CJ will be home and Mondays I have classes. I really hate how everything is affecting our relationship. We're both always tired because of work and school. There's so much tension and walking on egg shells and crap with CJ that it's nearly impossible to relax at home. We haven't shared a bed in months. We've become more like roommates than a couple and I hate it. The only reason I'm not freaking out more is because I'm trying to keep my mind focused on what we need to do to move into our own place. It's hard though. Some days I really miss the way we used to be and it feels like we'll never get it back.